Since, duckie isn't using this much... Umm.. Imma post somethings on hereee.... moree... Ummm... oki. Well here's something I realized.

The virtue of our life is only reflected upon by our death, only when there's an end can everything be seen as a whole. But with time the whole crumbles apart only to be forgotten and become a part of another whole. The longer I hold onto the sanctity of life the more majestic your veiw will be of my ocean... Ocean, meaning, my life, you'll see me for the crystal clear glass of the carribean watters, and the dark stormy weather of the monsoon. ~Spunks

I have no right using the name spunks for the time being... or ever.

Story...

The waves curled between their toes, he held her hand as she held his. The sun drifted lazily down in the sky striking the clouds with the evening light. Time passed by and all he could do was stare at her, no matter how much she considered herself an imperfection to the society that she believed was everything in her eyes, his smile could always wash over her and give her the sense of security she longed for. She drifted into her sleep and he held her close.

At first everything her mind was pitch black, the dream did not come. Then the thoughts of pain entered her mind, thoughts of betrayal confronted her fears, still she remained sleeping peacefully or so he thought. It never occurred to him that inside, she was fighting every fear, every bit of shit that has happened to her in the past. It was a constant struggle, just so she could put up a smile the next day. He fell asleep content that she would be okay.

In his dream he could hear her sweet melodous voice over the phone. Then he hung up in mid call, he never called back, never contacted her for a few weeks. She was insulted and hurt that he of all people would do this to her, especially when it was so close to her prom. The dream became a nightmare, he showed up at her door step, flower's in his left and chocolate in his right, he rang the doorbell and waited for her answer. She opened the door, his expectations of how beautiful she would look in a prom dress blew him away, her hair curled and dangling below her eye, her brown hair was up in a bun and he looked straight into her green eyes, it was like staring into an emerald and having the gleaming surface just mesmerize you. She looked at him and said "Why are you here?"

"Umm... suprise?.." he said in a weak broken tone.

A guy came out and looked at him, "Hey, I see your flowers and chocolate's arrived..." and hugs her from behind.

Broken and devistated he left in the taxi cab, not a word was said... He arrived at a friends home, hoping to seek comfort in her. He knocked on the door, his hands empty, his eyes full. Her sister opened the door.

He looked at the sister eyes red and swollen. "Is you know who here?"

The sister looked back and was torn on the inside to see a friend hurt. "Um, she's busy right now... maybe if you come back tomorrow." She closed the door in his face. He could hear her running inside and talking... He walked back the the taxi which was on the other side of the street.

"Hey, wait up... My sis said you wanted to see me... It's nice to see you." She stood there and looked at him he looked back and could only smile and taste his tears.

A young man walked out of the house, "Hey what's going on? The movie starts in a few minutes."

She could only look at her friend and say, "I'm sorry... I'd like you to meet my boyfriend."

He turned his back on her and ran into the street, into a car... The driver was drunk and swerved across the road hitting a telephone pole. Despite his injuries he ran over to the car and pulled out the driver before fainting int the middle of the road. Days... Months... passed by alone in his hospital room... He could not remember what happened when he awoke from the coma, just him standing in the chapel. To the left was a sign "John and _____'s wedding day." No one came, not his family, not her family, not even her. He stood there alone in the room, the salty tears streaming down his face colliding with the floor and exploding just as the ring shattered the chapel caved in.

"Oh Fuck" He woke up and saw the one he cared about laying down in the sand curled up near him, he picked her up and carried her home.